NEW YEAR-ITIS… RAINBOWS AND FKIN UNICORNS

I feel fat and heavy… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I’m embarrassed about going to the gym because I am weak, intimidated, and unsure… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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My back is stiff and in pain because my mobility is garbage and I’m carrying weight… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I have no time… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I can’t keep up with the kids because I am so out of breath from being unfit… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I’m mentally exhausted… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I’m anxious, depressed, and constantly question myself… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I’m inconsistent - on the horse, off the horse, undisciplined, haphazard… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I hate that change is so slow, making it hard not to give up… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I feel guilty about spending any non-work time on myself… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I’m doing it on my own, no support from family… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I need to downplay my wins so they don’t feel bad (even though they’re “happy” for me)… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I’ve always believed I’m not good enough and somebody always deserves better than me… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I will never get ahead… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I’m feeling tired and uninspired about life…. 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I feel like my life is just what it is and that there’s not much I can do to change it… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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I’m totally disconnected from my partner and sex because of the way I feel… 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘞𝘢𝘪𝘵 𝘜𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘕𝘦𝘸 𝘠𝘦𝘢𝘳⁣
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𝐈𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐞, 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐚𝐢𝐭 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐍𝐞𝐰 𝐘𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐢𝐭? ⁣
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𝐍𝐞𝐰 𝐘𝐞𝐚𝐫-𝐈𝐭𝐢𝐬…⁣
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Pinning the hopes on the New Year⁣
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Rainbows and Unicorns… ⁣
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Nothing changes until we change… ⁣
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𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐍𝐎𝗪… 𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄